Remembering Scruffy

Tuesday, June 3rd, 2014

Dear Scruffy,

(Scruff, Scruffikins, Scruffy-Wuffy, Scruffington…)

We had a lot of silly names for you. 🙂 It’s been three days now, and I miss you more than ever. Saturday was one of the hardest days I’ve ever had to endure. To wake up and find that you had left us in the middle of the night was absolutely heartbreaking. I’m glad I spent Friday evening cuddled up with you on the couch, and I’m glad that Mike never left your side the entire night. It comforts me greatly knowing that you were surrounded by an immense amount of love in your final hours. And I know that love was reciprocated, as your little purring motor was in full force.

I still find myself looking for you every time I come home, and then the realization sets in. It’s definitely hard, and it’s going to take some time to work through. After all, you’ve been part of our lives for fifteen years. We’ve had a lot of happy times together, and you certainly gave us a lot to smile about:

It didn’t matter than I had just put your food down, for as soon as I made dinner for Mike and I, you decided that ours tasted better. I will miss the way you used to race to the fridge as soon as it opened, hoping for a piece of cheese. You were the only cat I knew that would literally beg. You’d stand on your hind legs and put your little paws together in an up-and-down motion and meow like crazy for that cheese, and of course, I always gave in. How could I resist that charm? I’ll never forget the silly way you used to lay, the front half of your body laying down on me, but your back half standing up. It looked so uncomfortable to me, but it seemed to have suited you just fine. Or how your tail was constantly in the shape of a question mark whenever you were walking around, lol. How about all those times when you jumped up on the bed, and I sent you back out of the bedroom, only for you to turn right around and do it again (and again and again)? You were a persistent little girl, that’s for sure. Even when you did something bad, we could never really be mad at you. You worked your way right into the core of our hearts, and not a single day will go by that we won’t miss you terribly.

Yesterday I thought I saw a cat go under the kitchen table, and I was so sure that it was Littles, but she was in a completely different room, so I’m convinced now that it was you, especially since that was one of your favorite places to lay. And I’m sure I’ve been hearing faint meows also. I’d like to think that you’re here with us, watching over us and letting us know that you’re okay.

When you left us, I cried so much throughout the day that my entire face hurt. And I know that when you come home tomorrow, I will likely be the same way. I will never forget you, and I will always reflect fondly on the good times we’ve shared. I love you so much, my sweet little Scruffy, and I will see you again someday. ♥

Love always, your human. ♥

4 Responses to “Remembering Scruffy”

  1. Usagi says:
    June 3rd, 2014 at 4:01 pm

    What you wrote is so beautiful, made me cry. You’re baby girl will always be with you. *hugs*

  2. Rain says:
    June 3rd, 2014 at 7:06 pm

    Made me cry too – So sorry for your loss but I’m sure she knows how much she was and still is loved and like Usagi said, she’ll always be with you. Now she’s playing in kitty heaven with all our little furry babies and watch us <3.

  3. Monika says:
    June 3rd, 2014 at 7:57 pm

    This is both so sad and beautiful at the same time. I’m so sorry for your loss. I have a cat I adore the most in the world, so I can imagine how you feel. Hope you will feel better and I’m sure she felt your love every day, because cats can do that and then they just love back <3

  4. Georgie says:
    June 8th, 2014 at 1:15 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about Scruffy. This post brought tears to my eyes. *hugs* I’m glad that writing this helped you get your feelings out there, you have all our support <3

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